Sometimes I hope I can be like the times when I was still naive - the times when I could have my temper tantrums when I am rejected, show my discontents if I dislike something and cry when things are not going well. Then, things will somehow get brighter after that.
As you grow up, you will realise you learn to be considerate, you learn to compromise with the things that are going out of track and you learn to accept that you are not the centre of the world. People around you do not have to tolerate with you, and your mistakes.
You develop the skill to face declines, refusal and accusations. Because you know no one has the responsibilities and obligations to be there for you. No one. On the contrary, people will exploit your weaknesses and toy with your feeling. So I learn to smile to everyone no matter how uncomfortable I get inside.
But can I cry tonight?
Don't exploit my feeling. I can be weak now but I will be strong one day, I swear.
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